Friday, January 19, 2007


In the end, it was easy to say those words: I don't want to live like this any more. In the end, it was easy to say that while everybody seems to think that we are the most harmonious couple around, this is in fact not the case. I don't want to pretend any more. On these pages, you have so far read a carefully edited version of me , a Katrin who's presentable to the outside world.

While no untruths have been told, the truth is something much more complicated than what I have shown here. Yes, I am married. But no, being married doesn't mean anything to me. And no, I am not a monogamous person. Nor am I completely heterosexual. Yes, I am a psychologist. But no, that's not the only career I can imagine. And no, helping others has not made me a calm, well-adjusted person like I might have hoped. Yes, I am 30. But I feel like I have only just begun.

There you go. An end, a beginning, and hopefully more truth for you to read about in the future.

Sunday, January 14, 2007


To me, there is always one distinctive day when spring begins. This year, that day was last Friday, March 12. The air had a sweeter smell, and even though it was (and is) still, cold, winter is finally over.

This weekend was a busy one, comprising everything from a seminar focused on self-discovery (part of my psychotherapy course), the beautiful wedding I attended with my friend JH, a party where I worked at the bar and a visit from a long-lost friend. A rich, full weekend it was.

My daughter keeps asking me to sing a spring song as if she, too, knew that a new season has begun:

Kommt die Sonne, kommt die Sonne
kommt der Frühling bald,
kommt der helle, der helle Frühling
kommt der Frühling bald.

The sun is coming out,
spring is coming,
bright, bright spring
is coming soon.